Really missing my ex. Been dreaming about him for the past week, visited his mom who's like a second mom to me last Sunday, spoke to him yesterday. Felt like old times when we talk, he cares so much and it shows.

Currently seeing someone who's exciting and fun, but emotionally immature and unavailable. I rarely call the guy because talking to him on the phone is like pulling teeth. He doesn't ask follow up questions, no active listening, just a bunch of "oh, that's nice" and LOTS of silence. He sounds completely disinterested and that's such a turnoff.

Miss my everyday conversations with someone who actually listens to me and makes me feel like sharing what happened in my day. Someone who makes me laugh and is kind to me and gets me. What should I do?

I enjoy posting about my love life, but I realize that it stops potential love from seeking me out after they read my posts. It's okay to rescue me. I do know how to play victim.

I must be going on a venge-spree.

A particular friend is annoying the pants off of me. If I had crocheted underpants with a loose string, imagine that loose string being tied to a [really fast german vehicle] driven by a speed-obsessed douchefag. I'd be underpantsless in no time.

She's a Me-Monster. A close friend, but I've always been annoyed with her need to flaunt, to flare, to lead guys on so they buy her meals and toys. Steals the spotlight. Posts pity notes up on Facebook so people can praise her with pity? The self-obsession is sickening to the point where my irritation is leaking out in the way I deal with her.

Dropping Friends.

I do this about once every two months. There are so many lackluster people who I call friends who leave me feeling used, abused, unappreciated, and bad about myself. Why keep them around?

Douchebags abound

Been really lonely even though I see different friends every night. Been really good at keeping potential dating prospects at bay even though I crave having someone close.

The next person I let into my life is going to be someone really good and special. I know it

My heart still hurts thinking about him. Thought I was over him, but I saw his new pictures and I felt this welling up in my heart. Feelings.. god. I wish I could control them.